Kat

My name is Kat and I am 35 years old. I am from Scotland and I have recently become a Christian.

I grew up in the Catholic Church but I wasn’t interested and paid no attention to anything. I had a troubled childhood, an abnormal upbringing with abuse, and being exposed to things I shouldn’t have been, all at a young age. It was very complicated and eventually, at the age of 10, I ran away from home.

My aunt kindly took me in and raised me. However, the effects of my childhood influenced me deeply and I suffered both mentally and emotionally. I would for many years to come.

Becoming a teenager was extremely tough. I was bullied and struggled with homosexual feelings and mental health issues, which weren’t properly diagnosed at the time. I wanted to commit suicide every single day, but it was fear that held me back. I was afraid of physical pain since I couldn’t stand it, but yet I felt emotional pain every single day. I felt so alone and struggled constantly, feeling that people couldn’t understand just how bad I felt inside.

I committed all sorts of sins in my life. I drank copious amounts of alcohol and took many drugs, not caring if I lived or died. I was always looking for a high or a thrill because I felt so depressed and damaged. It was also what people were doing all around me, me so it felt normal. I never realised just how damaging it all was and I was fairly oblivious to the harm I was causing myself.

I entered into both homosexual relationships and adulterous relationships, where fornication was present. I also tried to contact the dead by using psychics and new-age demonic practices, which I thought weren’t bad. I was completely deceived. I went through life completely broken and lost more of my humanity and feelings each day. If I had gone much further down the dark hole I was in, I might never have gotten out of it.

To me, I was the worst of the worst. I wasn’t aware of my emotional need to be loved amongst all the turmoil that took place every day in my life.

That’s when Jesus came in. It started with a colleague inviting me to church one day. I was resistant and felt highly uncomfortable while I was there, and because of my vulnerabilities inside, I didn’t go back. Then, fast forward another few years, He sent robins to catch my attention. It was Jesus’s way of communicating with me. Another colleague asked me to attend church, and this time I went and ended up giving my life to Jesus.

It wasn’t an easy process for me. Once I realised He was reaching out to me to tell me He died for me, I was so emotionally caught on that. Since I felt so unloved and broken He caught me just as I would have fallen further into the abyss, perhaps never making it out. Jesus has saved my life and I would die for him easily. He has opened my eyes to many things and it’s certainly a process by which He is helping me in His perfect timing.

I know He is the only way for us to be healed to be saved. He’s the only way to be truly alive. I have been through everything, completely dead inside and at rock bottom until I discovered that He really is the way, the truth, and the life. He is the ONLY way.

I spent years of my life trying to find another way, but I never could. Now I don’t feel so alone. Now I know I can cope with anything because He is my strength. He is everything to me and without Him, I am nothing. He will never leave us or forsake us and

He is the only way to eternal life. He will meet you wherever you are in life and love you and change you, believe me.

Jesus is everything. xxx